When Old Feelings Resurface
Oh, am I still a work in progress. Last night as I lay in bed, I realized I was trying to fall asleep before my …
Tag: refusal
Inviting God
During the worst of my refusing/gatekeeping years, my prayer life was nothing to write home about. I was a tangled-up mess of depression, anxiety, frustration, …
Touchstone: Sex Is Fun, Part 1
I used to lie awake at night, after sending my husband back downstairs to drown his rejection in whisky or after having given in to …
Crawling out of the Pit
My journey from sexual resistance to sexual joy was a slow crawl.
The Pit of Refusal
My first post explains how I fell into a pattern of avoiding and resisting sex.